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Having survived it... [Nov. 6th, 2005|07:59 pm]
Saturn's Return

I'm SO glad to have stumbled upon this place! It's so nice to see a group dedicated to one of the most traumatic and enlightening astrological experiences ever.

I had my Saturn return in Cancer this year. Being an amateur astrologer myself, I know that Saturn in Cancer is one of the most difficult returns, due in part to the planet being in its detriment there. Never did I realise just how difficult this would actually be.

Time again, the question of loyalty to my family rose to surface. I am a graduate student living very far away from 'home', and as an only child, my situation is that much exacerbated. Because I was one of the very few in my extended family to even consider postgraduate education, much less pursue it, no one understood why I would want to go, much less go abroad. I did both, and my life spiralled out of control when I did.

First, I had difficulties with my supervisor, who didn't understand my vision or goals, and with whom I could not establish a dialogue. Then I felt acutely separated from everything I knew and held dear, and felt like it all was just falling away from me. I had to address issues with the men in my life (another famous Saturn in Cancer feat), starting with my male friends and working the way through to my father. And then, my family (extended) started badgering me to come home. One thing after another culminated, just around my birthday, in me finally asking myself: 'Is this what you really want?'

The dust hasn't even started to settle, but I feel I have a bit more clarity. For a while I was running away from my problems; now I find myself confronting them more and more. For a while I hid my hugely volatile emotions (Scorpio moon); now I just prune them when they need pruning. I still feel like I'm flailing about in a massive sea with no land in sight. But at least I'm treading a bit of water.
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Insert introductory post here [Aug. 2nd, 2005|06:14 pm]
Saturn's Return

I'm so glad I found this community! Although I'm only 27 1/2, I recently discovered that I am already experiencing my Saturn Return. I had heard about Saturn Return in the abstract...I knew it was kind of a "settling of accounts", but I thought I was pretty much where I needed to be, and I thought I had at least a year yet before I started feel its effects. Well, Saturn had other ideas ;).

A couple of weeks ago Hurricane Dennis came through, and my roof started leaking...into my attic...into my bedroom...into my living room. And about a week later, my washer was leaking...and I started experiencing intermittent internet activity, which seemed devastating because I work from home at a job the Universe is making it clear is no longer right for me. And then we fixed the washer, and something else went wrong with it. And although none of this may sound that bad, it's stuff that happens to people all the time, it really brought all my insecurities to the forefront. It was hard to adjust to things because they were happening so rapidly. I was becoming so depressed that my digestive system was off, and everything else seemed off as well. And then an astrologically-savvy friend checked my chart, and said, "Oh, it's your Saturn Return, and it's interesting that you are having so many water issues since Saturn is in your 12th house, which is ruled by Pisces/Neptune" (my Saturn is 0 degrees Virgo, on the cusp of Leo).

I'm trying to remain positive, because I get the tough love aspect of it, and I am realizing all the ways I've wanted my life to be better, and how my Saturn Return is trying to help me do that (although somewhat harshly). I wasn't taking care of me, or my house like I should. I need to get a better job. And because of all the ceiling repair issues, I have the impetus to finally clear out my clutter (a lifetime goal of a former stuff-a-holic)--not to mention that my stuff doesn't really seem that important anymore, and having as little stuff as possible seems really appealing. I'm budgeting better than I ever have before, because overspending no longer makes me feel good. I've lost the urge to overeat, and I am losing weight (another lifetime goal). It's like I have a much more goal-oriented mind now, but it's hard to relax anymore, and so it's hard to stay balanced. It's hard to feel "normal". It's hard to feel safe, feeling constantly tested, and hard to keep my equilibrium. And I feel like I am annoying those that I love and who love me with my whining. But almost everything is different now for me, and it's hard to accept sometimes. And this is just the beginning! LOL. At least I'm still laughing about it, right?

Is it ok to post with SR issues from time to time? I don't want to annoy any of you with this either, but I feel like it's taking me longer to get some of these lessons from this, and the sooner I get them the better. Any constructive comments would be appreciated. Thanks :)
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Wow [Jul. 14th, 2005|10:05 am]
Saturn's Return

Just found this community. Am going through my Saturn return (will be 30 in a couple of weeks) ... life is UP and DOWN and .. sideways, and upside down, and ... well, topsy-turvy in general. Kind of like shaking a giant can of pop soda, opening it, and then throwing it at the ceiling fan.

Am a Leo in the 9th house (saturn).


What a painfully fun transition!!

This started during my 28th year (2 years ag0), although the transition started before then in very little ways, and has built into a crescendo last year which is still going on.

Urge to own myself, be my own power, grow into my FULLEST potential, and BE a servant for humanity.

Last year broke up with a girlfriend of 5 years (moved away, tired of being verbally abused, insulted and put-down)

GAVE away half of a successful business (whats the point in engaging energies into what you do not love?)

Moved into a yoga ashram (For a transition period, pure knowledge and experience of Kundalini and mysticism seemed to be the best for me)

Am now dead-broke wondering whats going on (can't even afford to get a vehicle on the road)

Doing my best to ... reveal myself to me (What else is left when you've got nothing?)

Learning to let lift be as it is, and to move with the flow (surrendered), instead of forcing life into directions which are not necessarily for me to experience.

Interesting points -
  • None of my old friends are now part of my life.
  • My areas of creativity have changed from painting (had to work at it) to making music (love it, comes naturally)
  • People are now just attracted to me (non-sexually) without effort and tell me ALL kinds of details about themselves. Before, people tended to not even see me.
  • Book knowledge is not as important now, experiental knowledge and intuitive insights arrive all the time.
  • There seem to be intense periods of change which last a couple of weeks, and when they are over, all that is left is a completely different me having INGESTED new concepts and ways of being.
  • Shifts in sexuality
  • Many old habits from childhood are gone, new interests have budded in my life.
  • My life has become much more other-oriented, the selfish-pride of me has diminished greatly.
  • Over-whelming urge to 'get my life in order' and to 'set my course' and to eat alot of chocolate.
  • New things just manifest in life now.
  • An urge to clean up physical living area, hardly any physical possessions are left.
  • Communication with father has improved drastically. From never speaking to him, to being able to share and be open, and not feel defensive.
  • Over-all sense of well-being (most of the time)
  • A strong urge to dance all the time. (ok, its wierd..)

    Soooo ... yep, had to get some of this out! :)

    Am writing essays on yoga, mysticism and philosophy which are available in my journal, if any of you are interested.
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    (no subject) [Oct. 18th, 2004|08:57 pm]
    Saturn's Return

    anyone else with their saturn in leo?

    i'm only 27, but i'm definitely starting to see saturn's effects on my life. he seems to be clearing all the distractions out of my life so that i can focus on my creative ventures. the problem is, those "distractions" seem to be relationships that have been important to me for years...

    i'm interested to see other people's experiences with saturn's return... when did yours begin? where are you at now? are you beyond it now? what lessons have you learned?

    i'd like to collect some stories and put them into a zine. let me know if you'd like to be involved.
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    Question [Jul. 25th, 2004|05:45 pm]
    Saturn's Return
    Ive been reading a lot about this lately, and it all makes so much sense. Everything thats described is exactly what Im going through. The trouble is Im 27. Is this possible? Ive been in this whirlwind for about a year now, but I wont hit my 28th year until Fall. Thoughts or comments?

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    Saturn in Cancer [Jul. 22nd, 2004|08:03 pm]
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    So anybody else with Saturn in Cancer - how are you doing right now? Where are we headed and what do we need to get on the Cancer path?
    Last year seemed a lot harder than this year. This year I'm getting used to being...dare I say it?...mellow.
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    (no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2004|06:51 pm]
    Saturn's Return

    Hi there, beep meep...I am new here. Infact, I was rather mesmerized to find this community..an unexpected surprise.

    I have been reading an amazing book by a spiritual astrologist named Barbara Hand Clow called 'The Liquid Light of Sex' which is all about Astrology and awakening Kundalini energy, and there's a huge part all about Saturn Return.

    My roomate was the first to tell me about this. It's new, but it resonates well with me.
    Does anyone know of any other books about Saturn Return, that they could recommend?

    Light and blessings,

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    (no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2004|12:49 pm]
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    [music |Rebel prince | Rufus Wainwright]

    bellacrow sent me a link last week to an interview her local paper had with one of my favorite Artists: Rufus Wainwright

    But I was thinking after I read it, If *this* doesn't sound like a person in Saturn Retrograde, what does?

    From rehab to new album, he's walked through fire and come out singing -- today, Rufus Wainwright may be the darling of pop, but he's no messiah:
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    Saturn Retrograde [Jan. 6th, 2004|06:45 pm]
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    [mood |okayokay]
    [music |03 Imperio - Veni Vidi Vici]

    Anyone can tell me what the effect is when Saturn is Retrograde, as it is right now, on the Saturn Return?
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    Yakuyoke Taisai [Jan. 2nd, 2004|11:13 pm]
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    after reading the decription of this i was imedtly reminded of my Yakuyoke Taisai pureifcationb this augest

    i guess i should expane that

    Yakuyoke Taisa literly means Pureifcation of misfourtune

    Acording to the Kigaku (shinto Divination method) the ages of 25 and 42 in men and 19 and 33 in Women are "Yakudoshi" or Dangerus years.
    also the years 42 in men and 33 in women are Taiaku or Grand climatic years witth the proceding year Maeaku and the following year Atoyaku Requireing Speshal ceramoneys as well .

    ill have to resurch if thire is a saturn conection
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