|22 degrees leo
||[Oct. 15th, 2006|05:50 pm]
hello out there.
i've just joined the community; i'm currently experiencing my first return of saturn in this lifetime. i mean, the return is exact, like, today. my natal saturn is 22 degrees leo (9th house), 56 minutes, and today saturn is 22 deg 44 mins. i've been feeling the effects of this impending return for some time, particularly in the last 6 months. i feel old, grown up, responsible, reasonable, wiser, and dependable -- in short, all the things that i would have considered 'boring' not too long ago. and so many people, good friends and mere acquaintances alike have remarked on the maturity of which i now seem now capable.
so i write to ask if anyone out there has any return stories they'd like to share, or if anyone has any advice on what to expect once transiting saturn passes the return point, but remains conjunct the natal saturn.
Don't know how much help I can be. During my first Saturn return I had a baby and consequently got divorced (long story but divorce was not my choice). I also found that the Return did not affect me overnight either. Rather it set about a chain of events. If you are at the beginning of your Return, you may expect things to intensify and then start happening.
ah yes, i can agree there. this saturn return has been affecting me for some time now, like a chain of mounting events. now that saturn is at its exact return point in my chart, it feels so strange to be so grown up! i can only imagine what it's like to be going through all of this and having a baby, and wading through a divorce.
I'm in the center of my first Saturn return- I'll be 30 November 11th. Honestly, it has not been the easiest part of my life, but many many changing events have occurred- career, love life, family, etc. I don't think I have any good advice really, but to hang on- it's still rocky with me yet, but I've definately come out more mature since it started.
thanks for the reminder. i'm hanging in here... i'm finding it helpful to know other people experienced similar things with their returns.
i checked your profile... i see you're from concord. i grew up in a suburb of boston myself, tho i haven't lived in NE for over seven years now. (and i too, have an affinity for whiskey, bourbon especially.) this is the time of year that i miss new england. the most. i think the saturn return is making that longing especially poignant now, a little extra-nostalgic... no more childhood for me!
and happy birthday [a little early] to you.
My exact SR starts right after yours (23 Leo). Yes, I made the icon for the occasion.
I've had a dying parent to deal with for the last 9 years, and everything is pretty much "on hold" until he finally dies. So that's what my SR is probably going to be about.
i love the icon! i saw your post in the 'astrology' community earlier, and it cracked me up. like peter pan's "i won't grow up" [which seems these days (in my sillier moments) to be my theme song.], but totally sardonic.
i'm sorry to hear about your parent, that sounds truly anguishing, both for you and for him, and for the others around you. i found tho, that this return thing, it's not just about one major event, it becomes present in/relevant to everything. your return will be exact in a day or so; mine is exactly exact (to the degree and minute) today.... good luck to you. :)
Oh, I relate to "I won't grow up." Why would you want to grow up? It seems like all the adults are MISERABLE to me. I'm all for the Red Dwarf "all the universes are supposed to run backwards and ours is a cockup because it doesn't" theory.
I was really figuring that my dad was going to die during my first exact return, especially since his birthday falls during that time (Nov. 1, last day of the first exact return for me), you hear that people often die around their birthdays, and the doctor told me that no patient of his has lasted past 16 months on a ventilator, and that time is just about up. But at the moment, Dad is doing "just fine" (well, as fine as you get when you're a vegetable in a bed), and I guess he's going to be "A MIRACLE!!!!111!!!!" and survive longer. Great, THAT's the miracle we get?
Honestly, this has gone on for nine years. I'm way past ready to let him go and stop the suffering. I feel like I can't move on in life at all until he dies. Everything has had to go on hold until that moment. So my SR's going to be a real lulu at some point, I guess. Whenever the anvil finally drops.
I know you posted this several weeks ago. How's it going?
I believe when my SR started, I actually remarked to someone that I felt I was growing into my skin. Well, since then I think I've multed several painful times--divorce, several moves, leave-of-absence from school, renewed loved. All of it was so quick that it left many people (like my parents) baffled and worried about me. Sometimes I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster, but I know it is all going in the right direction; the chaos is just exhausting sometimes.